Can anyone help me with a question re adult male depression/bipolar?

Wow! That sounds just like me! ahahahah....no its actually not that funny because i hurt alot of people. I try really hard too but I just can't. If you tell them to leave the relationship.... try giving him a scar and go stay at a friend's house and tell him its over. You don't have to break up for real. All i know it doesn't matter how mean i was. I always knew i loved my girlfriend.