Is it ok to hate my dad?

my dad is a former nba scrub, he made a lot of money but lost it all in reno and now we have nothing. he's hooked on methadone right now but that might be my mom's fault. im not good enough for a scholarship and now i have to take out loans to pay for my college because my dad cant afford it even though he was a pro athlete. i want to go to cornell, and its expensive